Why I am anonymous

I suppose you may be wondering why I don't take a real stand and go to the local papers and such to drum up support. The reason is I am too ashamed. I have a freaky body and I am aware of it every day I wake up and look in the mirror and every time I take a shower. I don't need to be reminded by other people too. I am always deep inside my head sure they can tell anyway so I go to great lengths to cover it. The fake breast I have now from America is quite good and if I wear a big but tight bra, it can give me a little cleavage but I am too scared to show off my chest as the insert may fall out or someone may spot the top. Before that I had one of those cheap ones you can get in shops like La Senza but they rarely go over two sizes so I still looked wonky and puting one on top of the other (they all come in twos) looks too odd and hammers it home to me how freaky I am. Before that I went down the old fashion root and stuffed my bra with tissue! This was rough on my nipple and cause humiliation once when someone grabbed my smaller breast, felt the tissue, and with cruel and evil delight announced to the world "***** ******** stuffs her bra!". It was humilating. My only consolation from that incident was they didn't try to grab me further and discovered the truth.

I also want to be anonymous to protect those I may mention in my blog. I want to be as honest as I can. This is the only place I can truely say what is on my mind and what is happening to me and the advice I may be given could be given to me in confidence but at the same time if it helps another girl like me, I want to share it.

And finally I am aware there are a lot of bad people who use the net who may attack me or say evil and hurtful things about me. By staying anonymous I am protected by the fact that these people don't really know me, they are cruelly attacking any random person because they are just sick or closed minded. I can understand that some people will view this as sheer vanity but they don't have to live in my body, my mind, and as they learn more about my story, I hope they will understand.