My appointment with another GP.

I have recieved an email from my primary care trust. I sent them an email expressing how let down I was. They said the first thing I would have to do is get refered by my GP but if she was unwilling, I should see another and take my email to them. They assigned me a PALS officer who is trainned to help me understand the process better and express my concerns. I made an appointment with another doctor. This time a named partner in my surgery. I broke down in pieces. this has all been so much for me. The fear of spending my life alone and like this is too much. I was scared that I was selfish. there are so many people worse off that me, with facial disfigurements they cannot hide and diseases but as terrible as it sounds, it provided me with so little comfort. The doctor was concerned that my GP had not examined me on the day I was told I could not have the operation. He called in a nurse to examine me. I was so upset. I haven't shown anyone my breasts since the incident with my ex. Taking my bra of felt like ripping my arm off. I was certain she would call me selfish and silly. When I finally did she was surprised at the size of my silicon insert. I told her how I had to buy it online. She said the smaller one was more a B than an A which is good I guess but the bigger one was between a D and a E. She could see where the bra had been cutting into me. I have to wear a C cup bra as it's the only way to hold in the insert. Hollywood tape makes my smaller breast come out in a rash. She said the difference was very noticable and the doctor agreed. The doctor said he would refer me but explained to me that 90% of these operations are refused straight away. But in his opinion it was affecting my mental health and also refered me for counselling. At least this may help with my suicidal thoughts. It would be good to finally talk to someone about this. Hopefully if I let my MP know what has been going on, they can help with getting the PCT to agree on appeal.

At least it's better than a straight no.